[ Castiel says it, and then blinks slowly, realizing that the comment might not be as helpful as he thinks it is. Humans, he knows, rarely find clinical facts comforting. ]
Do remember that I've come to you. I wouldn't be here had I not intended to listen.
[ No one heard his prayers. Or at least... no one answered them, and he will not easily forget the hurt of that. ]
I've found few humans know to judge their value accurately.
[ Which admittedly goes both ways - Castiel has seen humans who value themselves highly above others for no discernable reason.
The next words, though, he chooses carefully. He has a feeling Miriam wouldn't appreciate his opinions on self-important men in power - at least not at this very moment. ]
You don't need to have powers for your existence - here or elsewhere - to have validity and value. I do not believe any of us belong here, but...
[ Castiel won't make a point out of it directly... but people like Midge are why he's chosen to die for humanity, more than once. This world full of people like Midge, whose biggest concern should be their grocery list and their children's schoolyard tussles, is worth it. They're works of art, all of them. ]
There's no use in things like me existing if not for humans like yourself. What would be the point of putting up a fight, if there's no one on whose behalf to fight? Your existence here is unfair to you, yet I look at you and that bright, sharp soul you have, and see the cause I will defend at all cost. Your importance lies in the simple fact that you exist. Have faith in yourself, if having faith in anything beyond that is difficult here; you do plenty by just being.
[ Midge listens. It's rare, getting Miriam to be quite long enough when she's in a tizzy--she's no longer the obedient housewife she was, despite appearances and the tasks she's given herself in Beacon. She's far more independent, stronger than she looks, except now.
Castiel really is an angel, she thinks, and that adds another layer to things, and that combined with the weight of everything--with the warmth and sincerity of Castiel's words, how his voice is strangely soothing despite its gravelly tone...
Well. It's absolutely unbecoming of her to cry in front of anyone, let alone a semi-stranger who she'd somehow summoned, but she curls on into herself, one hand wrapped around her torso protectively as the other raises up just in time to cover her mouth as she sniffles. ]
I want to go home.
Please tell me if my research into Judaism led me wrong here, I have 0 practical knowledge
[ For a moment, it's all Castiel can say. His shoulders slump, slightly. Not in defeat - it's just that he wishes this was a request he could grant, or at least answer more positively. He wishes, too, that he knew how to handle her sorrow better. She's not Dean or Sam, whose measure Castiel has taken for so long that he knows how they handle their pain - poorly, for the most part.
With Miriam... he imagines he's the worst person to try and help her pain.
So after a moment he does something Castiel tends to be profoundly uncomfortable with when done with people he's not close to, and even then not often something he does proactively without particular cause; he reaches out to touch her. A warm hand, light on her elbow.
He's not particularly good at hugging, but will not deny her that if it's a comfort to her. ]
I... suppose I could offer reassurances. It's just... I'm told I'm something of a poor liar.
[ Not entirely true. He did manage to lie to and betray Castiel and Sam and Bobby for the better part of a year. Still... not the point.
Lacking any other comforts, he falls back on what led him here... prayer. His own broken faith need not impact hers. So he speaks the Dayan ha'emet, the blessing for negative experiences... and funerals. Hers... he might not believe that this is any sort of afterlife, but however they ended up here, the fact remains that death was inolved in some way. ]
[ It's real. It's real, and Castiel says that much--and in a weird way, that helps. It soothes, though not completely, and it seems to do the trick.
The touch does more, though--Midge doesn't hesitate the moment she feels it, and she lowers her hand from her face to grab desperately at Castiel, pulling him into a hug. She should probably ask, but she's working on emotion now--she holds him as tight as she can, finding their height difference perfect to bury her face into his shoulder. He prays and she cries harder, completely unaware of anything but the only source of comfort that feels even remotely real. ]
Thank you.
[ She's not sure if she imagines it or not--she feels a strange woosh, a warm feeling, like something else holding her. Something ethereal.
Miriam's just glad she's found someone that she can confide in. ]
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[ Castiel says it, and then blinks slowly, realizing that the comment might not be as helpful as he thinks it is. Humans, he knows, rarely find clinical facts comforting. ]
Do remember that I've come to you. I wouldn't be here had I not intended to listen.
[ No one heard his prayers. Or at least... no one answered them, and he will not easily forget the hurt of that. ]
I've found few humans know to judge their value accurately.
[ Which admittedly goes both ways - Castiel has seen humans who value themselves highly above others for no discernable reason.
The next words, though, he chooses carefully. He has a feeling Miriam wouldn't appreciate his opinions on self-important men in power - at least not at this very moment. ]
You don't need to have powers for your existence - here or elsewhere - to have validity and value. I do not believe any of us belong here, but...
[ Castiel won't make a point out of it directly... but people like Midge are why he's chosen to die for humanity, more than once. This world full of people like Midge, whose biggest concern should be their grocery list and their children's schoolyard tussles, is worth it. They're works of art, all of them. ]
There's no use in things like me existing if not for humans like yourself. What would be the point of putting up a fight, if there's no one on whose behalf to fight? Your existence here is unfair to you, yet I look at you and that bright, sharp soul you have, and see the cause I will defend at all cost. Your importance lies in the simple fact that you exist. Have faith in yourself, if having faith in anything beyond that is difficult here; you do plenty by just being.
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Castiel really is an angel, she thinks, and that adds another layer to things, and that combined with the weight of everything--with the warmth and sincerity of Castiel's words, how his voice is strangely soothing despite its gravelly tone...
Well. It's absolutely unbecoming of her to cry in front of anyone, let alone a semi-stranger who she'd somehow summoned, but she curls on into herself, one hand wrapped around her torso protectively as the other raises up just in time to cover her mouth as she sniffles. ]
I want to go home.
Please tell me if my research into Judaism led me wrong here, I have 0 practical knowledge
[ For a moment, it's all Castiel can say. His shoulders slump, slightly. Not in defeat - it's just that he wishes this was a request he could grant, or at least answer more positively. He wishes, too, that he knew how to handle her sorrow better. She's not Dean or Sam, whose measure Castiel has taken for so long that he knows how they handle their pain - poorly, for the most part.
With Miriam... he imagines he's the worst person to try and help her pain.
So after a moment he does something Castiel tends to be profoundly uncomfortable with when done with people he's not close to, and even then not often something he does proactively without particular cause; he reaches out to touch her. A warm hand, light on her elbow.
He's not particularly good at hugging, but will not deny her that if it's a comfort to her. ]
I... suppose I could offer reassurances. It's just... I'm told I'm something of a poor liar.
[ Not entirely true. He did manage to lie to and betray Castiel and Sam and Bobby for the better part of a year. Still... not the point.
Lacking any other comforts, he falls back on what led him here... prayer. His own broken faith need not impact hers. So he speaks the Dayan ha'emet, the blessing for negative experiences... and funerals. Hers... he might not believe that this is any sort of afterlife, but however they ended up here, the fact remains that death was inolved in some way. ]
For what it's worth, Miriam. I'm sorry.
shhhh its beautiful you're beautiful
The touch does more, though--Midge doesn't hesitate the moment she feels it, and she lowers her hand from her face to grab desperately at Castiel, pulling him into a hug. She should probably ask, but she's working on emotion now--she holds him as tight as she can, finding their height difference perfect to bury her face into his shoulder. He prays and she cries harder, completely unaware of anything but the only source of comfort that feels even remotely real. ]
Thank you.
[ She's not sure if she imagines it or not--she feels a strange woosh, a warm feeling, like something else holding her. Something ethereal.
Miriam's just glad she's found someone that she can confide in. ]